iTs Difficult To Live Mylife, The Struggle. The Problems iHave And Keep Creating. Not Knowing Who iAm Being A Drug Addict Who Cant Seem To Stop There Bad Habit. They Say iTs Easy You Just Want To Want iT. Not iF You Fallen So Low, left All Alone. iM Deep iN This ****, Deserve To Be 6ft Down To Rest. iTs The Best. For Everyone. iM Doing Nothing But Disappointing The Ones Taking There Time Trying To Support Me. Wasting There Encouragement Not Knowing iWont Last Long Before iUse And Fall Back in The Same Cycle All ******* Over Again :/ iTs Very Sad, To Continue This. Been To Many Places Yet Nothing Changes, iM Tired And Overwhelmed . Why Am iUsing Now? iFeel Lonely. This Drug Fills Everything Up inside Of Me. This is The Reason Why iWent Back To iT. Before iT Was Cause iLoved The Effects And Kept Trying To Get High Asf Like My 1st Hit, Then Lead To Me Going At iT Cause My Body Felt Like iT Couldnt Function Off iT Which Made Me An Addict . Loving And wanting To Always Have iT. Before iT Was Great, Nobody Knew. Then they Found Out The Truth. Ever Since Then Ive Been Living Daily On Lies Having To Hide iT, Denying im On iT When Clearly iTs Obvious. Chemicals Messing With My Mood , My Mind Now Plays Tricks On Me. Dont Know When itl Be Over Cause iDont think il Want To ever Be Sober.