I take it all back.  
The part about not being bad.  
The part about not being *****.  
The part about them being bad.

It's all me.

I wanted to believe that I'm none of the horrible things
they said I was but the actions do not lie.
I can normally write about what hurts
but I'm too ashamed to even do that.  
When it appears in black and white it is real and ripe to be judged.

If I lock it in my head then it happened to the others.
Not me.

I used to believe that anger was the worst emotion.
I was wrong about that too.  

It's shame.  
And it makes you feel less than human.

**SHAME