I've been dreaming of this since we met...

It is always a beautiful morning when we are together. We walk in a beach, hand-in-hand, while we tell each other some silly stories to make each other smile. Then in the afternoon, we watch the beauty of sunset while your head on my lap. I touch your face and comb your hair with my fingers. You tell me how beautiful I am to your eyes, then I just smile and give you a kiss on your forehead. You stand and carry me and swing me to the air while I shout your name and how I love you so. You then let me stand and hug me tight and say you love me too.

That story is always in my dreams and makes me cry because in my life I only have those dreams since I met you. So when you tolerate me in my fantasies, I think that I could be happy even for a while. Only to cry later when I'm done with my daydreaming. That's why I want to talk to you always because we don't know when will this last. You may find a girl, or I could find someone  like you who is willing to take me away from this kind of life. I always believe that God will help me to be free from this life, not in the way that He will take my life. I always pray for longer life because I want to feel how it is to be loved and taken cared of. In my whole life I have been that woman who's caring and loving to other people that I almost forget myself. I always believe that God loves me and He has a purpose in everything that is happening.

So you should not worry that you will lead me to a place where I can never be because I am used to failures and breaking. I believe I can still get at the finish line even if I'm full of bruises. I just don't know whose hands will hold me and will lead me to the finish line.