I tell myself to snap out of it
But I can only think of the way you would snap at me when I did something wrong
But your eyes would soften and you would gently grab my face and say
"I'm sorry"
Over and over.

We weren't perfect.
We weren't even close.
But you gave me something I had never thought could be long to me
You gave me stability
When my world would spin round and around
backwards and forwards,
my head spinning with it.
Nothing making sense.
My knees trembling
and my ears ringing.
There was you.
The steady rock in the never ending tornado.
You were there for me in a way I could never be for you.
And maybe that's why you picked yourself up
And moved onto some other storm
One that would calm down for you.
I'm sorry I never could.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry.