Being tied down isn't something I like
You say that's alright, but still it's something I fight
Yet why do I?
I should appreciate being free
For once, I get to do things for me
But I am still filled with anxiety

Restless, staring up at the ceiling
Wondering where this crazy ride will take me
Hurting when I wake up, fine by noon
Panic attack at sun down, exhausted by the time I see the moon

Depending on anyone else is foreign and unwelcome
I know that I can only depend on me
But it is hard with the past haunting me and the future stalking me

I'll probably get in my car and drive so ******* far away from here this summer
That's the best thought I'll have tonight
You'll be thinking "Oh ****, I lost her"
And I'll already be at the state line

I'll smile so much, knowing I won
Free and at ease, the good times will have just begun
It's not even May yet, but it's all I think about
Driving as far away from here as I can
The distance erasing all of this ******* self doubt