the space in my mind is occupied by your entity, merging with mine. you pose as a false god, painting me the enemy – demanding a sacrifice each time I resist your quiet reign.
I enabled it. let you have your fun. called it inspiration, called it love. called it anything but what it was. of all my failures, you were the most toxic one.
I gave you everything – piece by piece. you’d cover my mouth to silence the plea whenever I sought shelter, with hands, trembling, still tied to a bottle you call the cure.
you smother what’s left of me – dressed in ebriety, hiding the abuse.
and I need to say goodbye. not because I want to. but because I’ve had enough. of you hurting me, of you driving me to hurt myself. you’re costing me everything, and the loss is exorbitant.
I’m not just saying goodbye to you. you’re exiled. your velvet threats, your sugar-coated grip – banished. it hurts me more than you think. but this time, it’s final. because I’m not ready to see the aftermath if it isn’t.