It seems like lately Its all been pain and frustration And I realized That I go to counseling And I'm told about how toxic All of my relationships are And I realize That I don't know who to love anymore And I just don't know If it's worth it to me To rid myself of poison If it means I'll have to starve.
I know she's right. I know that I have a tendency to form toxic relationships because of all that I've been through. But it just seems as though in the process of stripping off the people who aren't good for me, I'm also losing everyone who I love and I don't know if I want to be alone for the sake of getting better. I don't know if I am willing to face the fact that I have a lifetime of bad relationships and that they need to be torn down in order for new and better ones to be built, you know?