I thought I was good, I felt I was fine— everything that’s happened was just pain that is mine.
My burden to bury, my cross to hold, a million and three reasons I feel like rusted gold.
I became standoffish, a loner at times, never letting anyone in, barely allowing them to stop by.
But it doesn’t have to be that way— I can open the door. I don’t have to only give happiness; I can ask for more.
I’m allowed to take up space, to be seen and heard. I deserve people’s time. They can listen to my words.
It was safe being small, hiding in plain sight, but being invisible never truly felt right.
I deserve to be loved— to let someone love me. I don’t have to run. I can stay and be free.
I lied— I’ll never regret meeting you. If I hadn’t, I might have gone through life getting close to others without ever letting them get close to me. That’s a sad way to live. So… thank you.