Sixteen years ago, on this same date                                                                      ­                                                    
 I was in such a different headspace                                                        ­              
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Hopele­ss & thought that nobody cared                                                            ­    
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I convinced myself to not be scared                                                           ­     
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I gathered up all the medications                                                      ­                
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More than enough for relaxation                                                       ­                     
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Laid down on the couch like I had                                                              ­  
                                                                ­                                                           always done before when I felt bad                                                      
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I had spent so much time lately                                                  
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Planning & plotting ******* me                                                               ­ 
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  That night I couldn't take it anymore,                                                         ­ 
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  I had pain inside of my inner core                                                            
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I put my faith in the whole amount,                                                          ­        
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A handful of courage, I drank them down                                                    
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All of this dialogue in my head                                                             ­ 
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   would soon be silenced, would be dead                                                          
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But God had other plans for me                                                               ­                                                                 ­                        
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  sent an angel and his mercy                                                            ­              
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Now I am feeling so differently,                                                     ­               
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I thank God for loving me