I don't even know
how I could stand the pressure back in time
I don't even know
How I could bear the heaviness inside
I don’t even know
How I could carry all the weight around
I don’t even know
But I still made it anyhow

And when today I feel so lost at times
I will remember that I used to fight
And all those years I don’t know what held me
But I am here and now I see

I see myself how I was holding on
And no one else has been there by my side
There must have been so much pain
But I would still push through

I tried to be the best for me and you……

I don't even know
How I could walk with all the loss inside
I don't even know
How I could find the way
I don't even know
How I was coping on my own
But I still made it anyhow…

I’m here today and blessed I am indeed
I’m grateful for the guidance I received
I must have felt it all along
Somewhere in my heart deep
And now I’m searching for it
in my sleep…