Years of screaming
Years of tears
Death
Demons
And hell
I fell
But always always
Came back
Felt it all
Used my emotions
To never again crawl

Spite helped me through
Spite helped me see
Spite was honestly
The best thing
For me

Hell came back
Hell came harder
Fire turned to lava
Mountains spewing
Oh the drama

I lost my sense of emotion
My send of me
I lost any destiny
Crippled
Alone
Torn from a future thrown
I was to die
Bitter and cold
Shaking and alone
The silence in my heart
The wounds never to part
I was alive
Yet buried six feet under
No wonder
No life
Just breathing in
Strife

Given up
No luck
No hope
No love
No stars
No God
I didn't give a ****
My heart turned black
The angels were only to attack
Angels of death
Demons of life
They filled me with hell
burned me til I couldn't
Yell

Years went by
Surely I was meant to die
Now and forever
Yet I didn't surrender
Never completely
Everyday dying
Still secretly trying
I would fight
While faces in the night
Taunt me
Telling me I'm not alright
Telling me I made my own plight
I'm crazy
Give up the fight

Never ever
Surrender your might
Never ever
Surrender your love
I can feel again
I can call my soul
A friend
In the end
My anger
My spite
Kept me through the night
Kept me giving all my might
*******
**** them all
I may fall
But I'll always stand tall
After it all
I am brave
I am strong
I belong
Life has it out for me
I will not beg or plead
For an eternity
I will win
I will grin
I will love with all my heart
I will see angels
And not death
I will see October
And nothing less
I cannot digress
Enough
How strong I was
How strong I am
Murdered
Broken
Beaten
Slammed
I was shamed
I was blamed
Stabbed through the heart
Told never to start

Here I am
Smiling again
The music is glistening
I am listening
With grace in my soul
I will always know
I'll be okay
It'll be okay
Feeling is beautiful
In every ******* way