As you close the curtains I close my eyes too But i still feel What ive always felt for you.
And when the sun awakens, So will you. Maybe youll apologize, Sometimes you do.
Whats been accomplished here Im not sure. Im constantly on a swing Back and forth from Can i love myself And love you.
Im not sure what my goal is here Maybe i was placed as a lesson For you.
Im tired of being the lesson I want to be the prize. I want to feel desired. Empowered.
Your eyes locked in mine
I am the fixer I dont want perfect I will always water you Even if its not worth it. If i dont get anything back At least i am with purpose.
But your soil has dried out I pour myself over Nurturing you Every last drop I squeeze out to water you.
Your roots are too damaged My flow still everlasting, I seem to think.
But each drip you take Is thrown away. I take the water That I desperately need And give it to you.
Clinging to each moan Each time we electrute
Infinite energy. My *** is empty Yet i know I have more, So i keep going. Your eyes and mine Align. But then the stars say, its time. You cant turn from truth When its looking your right in the face. Begging you, to not run away.
You need to take a look deep inside. I am the prize. But we've lost track of time Fun times turned to addictions Actions turned vindictive I know that white powder is so pretty But its not a human being.
I miss being The one you want to touch Even if its lust.
Yearning for the day, That i look in the mirror and can accept my face. In my eyes, All i see is damage. Most days i see in grey.
I want to explore. ******* tired of being ignored. So please step up, Do you have what it takes?
If not, sit down And let the next man take your place. I have too much love to give Jokes to have Laughter to live To sit here And accept this fate.
Na Im taking control of my day. Ill be the one to put a smile on my face.