last night i told you all the spiralling thoughts i had Tuesday night, all the crying and feelings of weakness and helplessness, the thoughts of not being good enough, self-harm, and so much more.
you cried and held me tight. i felt numb, but i felt bad that i made you cry. that vulnerability and knowing that you really see me makes me uncomfortable. it makes me wonder how you could possibly love me if you truly see me, because how i see me, i don't see how that's possible. but nonetheless, somehow you do, which i know is a testament of God's love and work through you, but i don't understand it.