you can escape reality if you put your head down to sleep but its not guarantied that you'll dream nothing in life is truly as it seems neither good nor bad, intertwined worlds in between like a stranger on the street passing by who never stops to smile, never bats an eye a sleepless guy, a losing battle a girl he loves but he can't seem to handle puffs of smoke & getting lost in cars strangers hands & late night bars lines of powder that make us feel love or something close to it we can never touch love is an illusion, love is a dream loves going to k*ll you if you let it in because no one stays the same yet nobody changes interchanged in each other; let me look in your eyes let me unpack my rage & disclose all my lies let me become a sinner & a martyr in your life and in your soft sweet embrace filled with emptiness & space hold me & tell me you adore me that there's no one worth more than me that you can't even describe my beauty that you don't only care about my ****** that you actually see my soul and you don't care when i act cold because beneath it all you look through me & you know me - because i know you & we are reflections of one another, lost souls wandering who dream in colour do i leave you breathless? do i cross your mind? do you think i'm even worth your time? i can't seem to understand why but there's a glowing light at the end of the tunnel that begs me to...try. i know that loving me hurts, hell, it hurts me too. & it kills me inside to know that's what i do i'm drowning down under a deep blue lagoon & i'm swimming for the top, reaching towards your hand its hard to breathe & its darker than night and the waters cold & my toes are numb but i know that i can't stop swimming up. i need you to show me how to change, i need to see a brighter light - i'm tired - i know i shouldn't be i'm young & have so much life ahead of me but i don't know where i'm going and all good moments are fleeting & rushing past me like cars on a never ending highway 120km an hour & thats how fast you'd drive only to find me can you believe that i ever thought less of myself? if there is good in bad & bad in good & perfection doesn't exist it's a lie to say you didn't love me it's a lie to say you weren't there i recognize the pain in your eyes, a fading image of my face, it will soon be over & its best for your heart if you try to ignore it. losing time under neon lights with accompanying thoughts of mine a rainy night. is it bad to say i want to hold your hand? never mind ***, tell me what makes you sad tell me how disgusted you are with yourself when you act the way you do i want to know every person in that diaphanous mind i promise you my love is blind.
i'm lighting my second cigarette & losing track of time. you're so special & ethereal your love is sublime. your voice echoes in my mind let me give you my body, my heart, my soul - you inspire me to transcend to greatness.
just thinking about the past & present all at once, what else is new.
feels absolutely amazing to be back after all these years. <3