Airports are filled with lonely people longing for their long distance lover, business men traveling for work, and wanderlust travel. The last time I picked someone up from the airport he didn’t know how much inside me I needed to unravel.
And I didn’t know the emotional baggage he had brought along. At first it was lovely, it was everything I wanted and more…feeling love, and sleeping next to someone who accepted me even when I was wrong.
Then, it got ugly, we started fighting and screaming at each other, I started drinking heavily to numb myself one after another.
One night he told me to hit him, and I unclenched all the madness inside of me, emotionally I was bleeding out. He still stayed and reminded me every day that I was okay, I was safe, and explained the things I knew nothing about.
That was then and this is now, I see airports and become sick to my stomach feeling devastation. I hate how all of it feels, and it feels like the extra luggage you don’t need on vacation.
It’s like I was dreaming the whole time and sometimes I want to reach out. We knew each other like the back of our hands, he made my heart dance but now I can’t stand in crowds at the airport because I drown in my feelings.