You may be lost. You may be alone. But it's not your fault. Even if you push people away. I know, coming from someone on the outside looking in, it's easy to say "don't listen to them" Or "take what they say with a grain of salt." So I won't say that. It doesn't help you feel better anyway. What I will say is what I said before. It's not your fault. I don't know what happened, but if you isolated yourself, that was a reaction. And there's no right or wrong way to react to anything. But not all hope is lost. When you react, you adapt. It's not easy. In fact, it can be quite painful. But you did it once. You can adapt again.