You will get fvcking easily dameged day by day in your feelings.
Sometimes people do not care about who you are.
And sometimes people care about you because they have the same feeling with you.
They just want to know what you feel but they do not care what you do after.
You just feel your feeling by feeling your feeling day by day until you do not feel again and again that you are feeling every sadness every madness everything you feel you are nothing about you.
Sometimes you want to die but dying do not solve your problems. Anxiety is like you feel dizzy in your head when you do nothing but the atmosphere like want to **** you bit by bit and you feel in your lungs step by step. Sometimes you feel nothing. In feeling nothing you feel you are real. The real creature that is you.
You deserve to be happy one day, and when you get it, there is nothing to care again about what you feel in the past.
Indonesia, 30th March 2021 Arif Aditya Abyan Nugroho