You get my hopes up just to slash them back down
Yet for some reason I still want you around
You play games with my heart
**** with my mind
So why am I unable to leave you behind?
I know in my head I am better off alone
But my soul is convinced that you are its home
So no matter how many times you leave me broken
All it takes to gain forgiveness is a few sweet words spoken
By now I have learned that your recycled phrases are lies
Yet they somehow still retain the power to make feelings rise
It's like you are an expert at getting under my skin
I try so hard to stay strong but when it comes to you I never win
My worst addiction
My sweetest crutch
I hate the fact that i need you so much
That no matter how bad you treat me my love never wavers
Each minute of your attention is sixty seconds I savor
But its apparent that you don't care about me the same
This on-off routine is driving me insane
I wish for just once you would open up to me
And be honest about everything you are scared to let me see
I love you unconditionally although I dont why
So you can trust me with vulnerable parts you hide
I thought I was your ride or die but now I realize that's not true
Because if it were it would still be me right next to you
You threw away our relationship without a second thought
Now you think it's that easy to waltz back in my life
Well it's not
You have hurt me too much for me to put myself through it twice
You claim to love me but how can you?
Your heart is made of ice
I would have never done you like you did me wrong
But I am grateful you did because it's made me strong
The pain I have suffered at your careless hand
Has given me room to grow and understand
You just miss me when you are lonely
It isnt fair
You have no intention on actually being there
But it's my fault I guess for giving you another chance
Fully aware that you are now involved in a completely new romance
I dont know if I am stupid or if you were right when you said
That I get off on sadness so I amplify it in my head
Why else would i make choices that i know will lead to bad?
Any rational person would be done with you but i am simply mad
So i endure more torment as you manipulate and deceive
I cannot any longer put the blame on me being naive
I've grown wise to your tricks yet I still participate
Because deep down I believe we were brought together by fate
We had something special and something truly rare
I dont think it's possible for anyone else to compare
If you are happier with her than you were with me
Than I won't interfere
I'll let you two be
But if you cant stop thinking about my face
Then go with your gut and return to my embrace