arms outstretched, I reach for the stars I was always told to want only to find that I'm tracing myself against murky, illegal water in pink nectar. I'm too rough unexperienced nerves get the best and I dip down ever so slightly not bothering to take a breath. as I slip under the fruity grip the lake of liquid freedom clouds my vision. fear. a calm, calloused hand hardened from time from life from love cups my cheeks and breathes into me with her petal lips sticky against mine a reminder. I float back up before I get a good taste I twist and turn against the current hissing against the surface Solidago and Indian Mallow smeared across the sky reflecting against me until I'm nothing but the fuzz of a peach