october, my love, your comfort and courage--your absolute devastation-- my soul lives forever in you-- all the years, the tears, the natural ebb and flow of hope and heartache-- the bittersweet autumnal hymn of death of warmth in the sun and cold everywhere else-- infinite dreams, romantic projections of the necessities of a human heart-- incongruency of aesthetics so beautiful they have to be true-- dancing through recalcitrant golden sunbeams of somewhere, somehow--