Today marks one month of sobriety. I’m happy with myself I’m staying clean. I’m experiencing first hand why getting clean seems like an insurmountable task, why it’s inherently formidable. It’s not because of the task of getting clean itself, its because of everything that’s in my face while I’m clean- the trauma, the distressing emotions & thoughts, the self defeating conditioning. It’s all clear as day, it’s inescapable now.
I’m proud of myself for choosing to face & deal, over numb & escape. I’m going to take one day at a time. I aim to live everyday now.