I wish I had more memories of us beaded like pearls on a red string of fate and circumstance, more days of spontaneous dusk walks, skipping school to create worlds far more beautiful than this one, more hours nibbling on leftovers or splurging on a mid-day meal laughing as you drop some hot sauce on your collar, more minutes in restive silence lounging on plaid sofa a book on your chest, our hands holding each other like we have all the time in the world.