Last night I had the strangest dreams. I dreamed I had three daughters (in reality I have two.) They were all babies, and of Spanish descent. My daughter's mom is English, and long gone; like the Beatles and the Jam. I remember two of the girls names, Amelia and Alhena, I can't recall the third one.
So there I was with these beautiful olive skinned babies. And it was wonderful. I was full of joy. The babies cried, so I cooked for them. When the Polenta had cooled, I said, "It's suppertime angels." They lined up and sat down. I fed them; each in their turn. they made soft cooing sounds. I turned around to pour some milk. And out of the corner of my eye, I saw dark shadows on the wall, and heard the flutter of wings. I turned back around. They had turned into doves, and one by one, they flew away.
I woke up with an ache worse than hunger pains. It was like the dreams That I had when I was a child. I dreamed that I had a puppy, a girlfriend or some candy, and then woke up to none of it. Nothing but a longing and a pain in my gut that never went away.