Thoughts racing Frustration attacks Fearing what I do Have I done things wrong
Falling to my knees I grip my head Pressing with all my might To try and stop it from destroying me
Over analyzing Over thinking Emotions going out of control As I rock back and forth
Is everything I do so wrong I can’t see how it’s not anymore The pain my head inflicts Driving me insane
Where is the peace of mind Where is the harmony that I hear so much about Where is the love for myself Why must I be so broken
I start to scream Trying to drown out the voices Blasting music so loud It can cause someone to go deaf
Yet I still hear the thoughts Nagging my every move Telling me all these lies With so much negativity
Things like You’ll never amount to anything You aren’t worth anyone’s time You annoy everyone you talk to
You don’t deserve happiness You deserve this pain you’re in You don’t have a right to feel special You will never be enough
They all hate you They find you repulsive They don’t care about you Why do you think they would ever love you
All these things Everyday All day Breaking me apart bit by bit
Pushing me further and further Into this pit of despair Driving me to think Maybe I’m better off alone
Maybe I’m better off away from everyone Maybe I just annoy everyone I talk to Maybe I am intruding on the people I care about Maybe I’m not worth the air I breath
Am I even worthy of being loved So many negative thoughts Drowning out my own voice Sending me into a state of disarray
Crying myself to sleep Huddled in a corner Fearing to even be seen By those I call my family
Why am I so broken Why must my head do this to me What is happening to me Do I even deserve to exist