I can't find the words to write
To make this pain sound beautiful
It just ******* *****
I haven't moved from my bed
I'm already half dead
Crying until I'm shaking
I'm sweating and sick
And I just want to touch you
But then I'll puke
From my hurting heart

You ******* ****
How could you hurt
Such a sweet little heart
I just wanted to give you my all
And you broke me to the ground
But you're sorry
You're my friend right
Why does my chest feel so tight
I can't make any sense right

Lost all my friends
*** you're all I can say
You're my whole day
Burning inside my brain
Tearing open every wound
I've stopped crying today
Not because it doesn't hurt
But because I needed a break

I told you we were okay
We would go back to normal
What else could I ******* say
Being without you was unbearable
Being with you is just as terrible
Your words circle through me
Constantly they jab me
Every spasm I endure
Is just another reason
To beg for more

I lay here awake
Not much more to say
I'm gonna brake
And accept you're not for me
I can't escape this
The loneliness
It's with me
It never leaves
You on the other hand
Surely will always leave
It's what's meant to be

I think
Oh I know
I'm going to cry again
  I wish you could feel my pain
And melt the **** away