I had forgotten him until he appeared in a dream - he so qualified me so average - and I awakened barely recalling him but the shame attacked me with a fury and has not loosened its grip even in the late afternoon. And I thought I became a different person after twenty years, even in the last five years. Am I still shackled to that old self with scars like ex-slaves carried from the chains and whips? It seems people fade but feelings rarely do.