Countless times Thoughts of the future floats within Accompanied by a speed racing fear Growing ‘till I’m drenched in cold sweat Leaving a hard knot where my heart was And as it cracks, I’m enraptured in sad pain Hot tears filling up my thoughts Forming in my once happy eyes In full readiness to soak my clothed chest But of what use? This pain never leaves.
Questions! The purpose of ones existence Every step forward is crippled By the heavy weight of discontentment Nothing feels right The overwhelming feeling of emptiness Unhappiness and unproductivity Overshadowing all seemingly positive efforts Filling up all happy spaces with sourness The pleasure and laughter is only temporary?
And it repeats Again and again • • •
Well this time, Even as sad tears form in my eyes I made a conscious decision to write All in hope that this sad pain Will float from cracks in my chest Through my thoughts and words Unto this digital sheet And I may find relief From this overwhelming fear.