Missing you has taught me
That you can both love and hate someone
So much at the same time
Even though it sometimes feels like every part of me is filled with hatred for you
That I can’t close my eyes without seeing what you’ve let happen to me
But I still cry out for you
My dreams are filled with memories of you
Daydreams consists of you coming back for me
Loving me again
Choosing me
Believing me
You’re not someone I should dream of
You’re someone I should hate completely without emotion
But I still have so many feelings
That I can’t explain
Loving you is hurting me
But hating you is killing me