i wonder how long will it take for me to die? how long will the pain last in my mind in my bones. oh i feel it everywhere, it reverberates in my body, my tiny, weak and frail little body. how long will it persist in scarring me front and back.
my mind, a strong fortress. so full of imagination and thoughts beyond your wildest dreams, maybe in them too. intoxicated with love and adoration for people and their souls. their beautiful and intricate thoughts.
but my body eating itself alive and rejecting itself. beating itself with a hammer. like self harm, but it hurts both of us.
but i love it so much, i take such good care of it i try so hard... i try so hard to be gentle and give it all love i can find. i know no one treats you very well, but i try so hard.
is it not enough?
am i not enough, again?
I know I didn't take care of it before, is it too late?