I am weak And wobble as I stand Like a baby bird A phoenix, perhaps Rising from the ashes With a bit too much smoke Left in its lungs.
The old husk That shell built over many days Of spring and rocks, Gentle grass and balmy river When it forgot itβs name was phoenix Has been torn off Too soon, like a scab And the new skin underneath Is tender in its infant stage Under thin and ashy feathers.
Yes, it lives Yes, it is rising
But one cannot go From flames to flight In an instant.
Let it instead be overnight And let you, sweet bird Rest In the meanwhile.
I had a really bad reaction to something I ate a couple weeks ago. tried to capture some of the pain and weariness I was feeling afterwards in this piece. i long sometimes for a world where I'm not always on edge waiting for the next mistake that will leave me debillitatingly ill for hours