sometimes i check on you
to see if you're still where i left you
where i met you
in the past
in the last bits of my adolescence and memories
in the renderings of broken dreams
and silly nightmares
when things aren't what they seem
and sometimes i think you meet me there too
...to see if im still broken
or lost without you
to see if i had mispoken
when i spoke of being through
to see if i was just mad and didn't know what to do
sometimes in my dreams
i'll let you love me
and i let you hold me
and i'll let you kiss me
and unfold me
because i know you miss me
and we're with no one to scold me
with no standards to uphold me
sometimes i miss you
so you visit me in my dreams
in between the scenes of the seams
you look for me in her
and you look for me in me
in places that are obscure
because we are unable to be
in this more than real life
because decisions you have made,
so you look for girls like me.
to one day be your wife
one of a kind
so although you look for me
you know you'll never find
the woman that i'll be
the woman that i've become
who'd you thought one day 'd have your son
the girl you see in dreams
is no longer yours
is no longer front and center
is no longer fore
you see the girl in dreams
and although you slip between
the cracks of all the seams
sometimes you'll get a look
and it'll make you feel a gleam
and other time's you'll get a peek
i see it when you sneak
you see me in my dreams
you travel through this fine line
to see me in my mind
to defy the realm of life
to see me one more time