You make me want to fall in a field and cry. Why do you only tell me lies? The person you show the world is like a drawing you can see it from the other side of the page. But you never share the real thing, you keep everyone at a distance. But what is the reason? Self preservation? Protection from losing and breaking and falling apart? But you know that doesn't make pain go away instead you create a world where you are the cause of your own destruction.
might add more later i wrote this about how i feel about myself and my intrusive thoughts but take it as you will