What is it like to play the last card Playing with cards from the shards of your heart What's it like to see in the dark light a little spark What's it like to see in black and white What's it like to feel a rainbow inside What's it like to feel it all together What's it like to enjoy but suffer Ask me what it feels like trust me I know What it's like to laugh when you have suicidal thoughts What it's like to have tears of joy While the monsters in your head play with your heart like a toy And make you cry and cry Cry over and over When pain is your drug and you haven't been sober You always tell yourself it's gonna be over But what is it the joy or the torture When will you hang a rope to your collar And the blood fro your wrists keeps pouring over and over Or maybe one day your heart won't be polar and black and white will burst into the sky and a rainbow writes It is finally Over