haha look what you've done.
spent two decades grooming me, teaching me
to hide away my individuality
to ignore and conceal my pain
to sacrifice everything to save face

you convinced me you did no wrong

and i thought i had to be the same

do you even realize
how many nights i drowned in tears
because of you
the wounds you inflicted on me

i still carry the scars

so don't be surprised
when i come and show you
the truth of what you've created
i'm not what you think
i'm so much darker
and so much better

ahh.... yes but you wouldn't understand that...
you don't understand
and it has destroyed you
but it will not destroy me

yet here i am
still trying to save face
still protecting you
from the painful reality
that i'm not what you wanted
i'm not who you tried to create
i'm just me.
and i like me
but i know you won't
you'll fear me
you'll hate me
you'll see your failure in me
and i don't think i can take that
i know for sure you can't...

so... here i am
hiding from you
putting on masks
burying myself deep within
to keep you safe
because despite all the wounds
i know you love me
and i you