missing you had been
like breathing to me
recently
thoughts of you
swarming my head
like flies to a moldy sandwich

my heart aches
when i remember your smile
my smile
we were so happy

my heart breaks
for the hundredth time
when i recall the way
you used to sing to me when
we had nothing better to do
i cheer you on
as you close your eyes
and belt out the melody
you weren’t the best singer
but the way i felt that night
tells me otherwise

my heart sinks and i
blink back the tears as
i hug the pillow close to my heart
i wished it was you,
but of course, i knew
that won’t happen
i close my eyes and
i try and
try and
try
to silence my regrets,
forget every moment
i spent loving you
losing you

but i don’t

i cling to the memories
even though they were
hurting me
i hold on
even though it was wrong
because it was the only
thing i had left of you

i hold on to you
even though i knew
you wouldn’t want me to

but that’s okay
this is okay

i’ll be okay