I’d like to let this crazy out
At least some of it
Instead I let it simmer and boil
Scalding and steaming in my head
I want to escape
Let me run from it
I want to embrace it
Let it wash over me
But what I certainly do not desire
Is to fight it.

I’M
TIRED!!

I can’t fight every day
I’m weary
I want to be weak!

STOP TELLING ME TO BE STRONG!!
I DON’T WANT TO!!!!!!!

Yet, here I am
Fighting my crazy mind
Each and every day
And most especially
Every **** night