Your smile,
Your constant reminders that I'm okay,
Your disease curing laugh,
Your constant generosity.
My trust that you'll always be there.
I'm not sure what broke me.

The delicate internal sting
As your lips brushed gently over mine
Until we fought silently with our mouths.
The heart wrenching pain after
As I tried not to cry,
Knowing I'm not good enough,
That I never will be and yet still
You stay by my side.

But it's not the same.

My tears which have not stopped since
Then are drowning me in an
Ocean of my own pain;
My sea of sadness embraces me
As I watch you leave and I
Know you regret everything.

Maybe that's what broke me.
My longing for you as my sick
And evil brain envisions you
Leaving until eventually

You do.

And I can't bear to watch.