You're blocked; you're bugged; your eyes stay screaming but I can't hear a thing.
Wash through me like knees through mud not yet caked over by the heat of the sun; like you're looking for something you dropped and it may soon be entombed.
Look at me as you would a tree caked in mud. Name me by my leaves, or my sinewy limbs.
You're soft; you're coarse; the lines that puzzle your face make frowning silly, and small.
Name me Steinway like the piano. Or Pecan, like the tree.
Find me forward, trudging through mud.
I can see solid ground but my branches can't reach to touch the grass or its flowers or to smell the rotten-ripe crushed leaves of the pecan trees.
Stick me where I'm stuck, save the mud. Give my leaves some snow, some lightness, cold. Give me color. Paint me in storm clouds.
Written while listening to Deafheaven's Sunbather.