⚠Trigger Warning; the following poem contains subject matter pertaining to suicide and self-harm ⚠ ---------------------- May 30th, 2018
These wayward breaths lead me to the Dead Sea.
"This is where you belong;" whisper the spirits of The Deep-- "this is where all broken things come to die."
The Dead Sea is my bathtub- ramshackle tiles, contorted shower rod bowing under the weight of the fraying curtain.
The water sprints in a scalding race from the tap, its gurgling clamour veiling the sound of Billie Eilish playing on the speaker (isn't it lovely all alone?)
I stare at the Exacto Knife clutched between my water-pruned fingertips.
And the moment you pick up a knife instead of a shoddy razor blade from a dollar store pencil sharpener, you know you've hit rock bottom (did you know the Dead Sea is the lowest point on earth?; have you ever experienced the remarkable plummet of that kind of low?)
I trace the patterns of invisible constellations on the terrain of my flesh; at first, I am too afraid to press down but when I do-- my god, when I do-- I draw blood with the same artistry borne from a painter's hand, each laceration a brush stroke closer to someplace beyond this sadness.
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