i tell myself
i will tell you when you ask
when you finally notice
the frowns, the sighs,
the circles under my eyes

i tell myself
i will tell you when you ask
if everything is alright
when you ask for the reason
i have been sleeping less at night

i tell myself i'm ready
i tell myself you will understand
but every time you ask
and the truth could come out
i tell you there's nothing to worry about