5 years ago, i lost you for the first time
it didn't mean much to me
because you cant love someone
or miss someone you've never met.
now i am an adult
and have a clearer image of what love means to me.
i brought you back into my life
because something inside my mind pushed me
to fix something my younger self was too afraid to do.
unexpectedly, i fell for you. all over again like i did 5 years ago.
the idea of you was a dream come true to me.
all the love songs started to remind me of you.
im such a hopeless romantic.
i love the idea of love
and my emotions get so strong especially when its someone i dont want to lose.
i didnt intend on losing you.
but i did.
i felt toxic to you
everything i would say in the last few days we talked just distanced us even more.
i made the hardest decision
i chose to let you go.
there is still hope in me that you'll miss me
and want to come back.
for now, all i have is our memories
on what could have been.