Myself loved to play hide-and-seek. That game went on for six years I almost started to believe that I lived in it. My happiness used to hide in any place – behind my smile most of all, so that nobody could find my sadness underneath it. I’ve always had this weird cough since I was fourteen. I sometimes thought that maybe, somehow, it was my own sadness trying to find its way out of my mouth, just to suicide itself on the pavement. Tired of being in the dark but too scared of the light. The first time I said out loud I was gay, I cried so hard. I used to think I was ill, dysfunctional, twisted. But once my father asked me: «Who can tell what normality is?». Today I am twenty years old and I’m who I have always supposed to be. Myself has grown up it doesn’t play hide-and-seek anymore. I am finally able to say that the true meaning of “Pride” is to not be ashamed of who you are. It’s to be thankful for you you are with no ifs or buts or if onlys. It’s to look in the mirror and see not a burden, neither a failure. Instead a heart and a soul from which you find strength and love. I have spent so many years committing hate crimes against myself. Now I’m working so hard on loving me and it’s not ******* easy. But here I am out of the closet enjoying the light I’ve been missing.