at the age of 21 i was finally legal to drink at the age of 21 i was finally legal to gamble
yet
at the age of 21 i slashed my wrists at the age of 21 i tried playing within traffic at the age of 21 i was ready to swallow all of my lexapro
at the age of 21 the monster came out the memories flooded my brain
after years and years of keeping them hidden beneath the cupboard after years and years of keeping them locked away so that sunlight would never ever touch them
where they would rot away turn black turn cold where these memories ate away at my skin like leaches in the dark
i should have been free instead i tried ending it all