I dont know what to do
I try to love
But all i do is hurt
I care
But i guess just not enough
I try to be me
But i dont know who that is anymore

I cry every week now
Almost everyday
All i feel is guilt
I told im a "Compulsive liar"
But i dont know if these lies are white anymore
I think they have turned back to red
The color of the blood that leaks every time
They found out it was a lie
I just dont know what to

How does anyone love me?
When im what i am now?
How?
I cant love me
How do they?
What do they see thats so pure?
So bright?

...Every time i cry
I hurt someone else
Just in their worry
And concern for me
They feel my pain
As the first tear trails
They just hug me and cry with me
..I dont want anyone to be in pain because of me..
        
       I feel like a monster