I'm normal for the most part I'm not super different I don't necessarily stand out I'm that nice girl who's kind of a nerd A sort of vague baby bluish hue in your memory
Except for those who I am close to who see me as more, splatter painted orange which happens to be my least favorite color and tiny splotches of greens and yellows then if you look way down deep deep deep like the deep blue sea
I'm fine I'm pretty sure I'm fine
I began writing poetry due to loneliness My obsessive reading had put tantalizing thoughts in my head of what school best friends crushes life SHOULD be but wasn't
I would notice every little thing a drop of a pin would mean a world of difference in my head
I'm fine I'm pretty sure I'm fine
I'm smart But lazy I don't spend enough time on what I should I'm too privileged I complain (As I seem to be doing now) I don't understand what it's truly like to not be
I do as I please It's not that I'm not a hard worker But it's like now, when I know I have two essays and two speeches to write (And science homework) But, here I am writing poetry instead
I'm fine I'm pretty sure I'm fine
I've repeated that, how many times now?
I wonder what got me started on this furious ferocious tangent ... I think it was... another poem I read
About how poets have something wrong with them or other
I began thinking, what about me?
Who's to say? ... ... Probably me Because I'm me And I get to decide who I want to be ... Is what an optimist would say Cheesy Not cheesy ... I'd like, to believe ... ... I need to believe ... ... ... You know what? ***** it, I WILL BELIEVE
Um...all I know was that it was me talking myself into going from uncertain to determined but I'm really not sure where I went with that. Hope it's relateable or gets you thinking!