Lost word

I can not seem to find the words
To write this poem
Nor the strength to fit
This pen between my brittle fingers.
I am unable to inspire the inspiration
That motivate my aspirations
To scribble the vocabulary my words posses
Into sentences that speak to your heart
Echoing the purity of my feelings
For you.
I've lost the credibility of my metaphors
The trust in my ability to alliterate the message written in these words appropriately.
How do I find the meaning to this paradox
When it's essence create's confusion
this emotions are a calamity to my being
Unable to distinguish between lust and love
Stumbling from one verse to another
Struggling to find the right connection
To the connotations of this words.
Feelings feel flat without infatuation
unable to penetrate through
The ceiling of this unwritten admiration
My words have lost meaning
I can't seems to find the letters
To confess that I am in love with you.