I honestly feel like I'm falling
My trust issues choking me
Like a noose tight around my neck
As I watch all those around me,
Falling deeper and deeper into a depth of love
A depth that I crawled out of after being thrown out
Just barely alive.
I'll look down at them, watching the ones who survive
Marry.
And the unlucky ones, such as I, who were tossed out.
I'll grab their hand to pull them up.
With a shy whisper,
"I know."
Tears will run down my cheeks as that rope that was once a noose becomes chains.
My trust for others disintegrating,
and my doubt increasing like a hummingbirds hunger.
I don't lose hope.
Maybe, maybe just one day.
The chains will be unlocked.
And I'll learn how to trust someone again,
as I also learn to trust myself with another ones heart.