I catch glimpses and pieces of a story I need to be a part of A word or an image will hit a particular spot in my heart and strangely resound Ideas skip through my head that suddenly click. I come alive I bolt upright "Yes!" but then it is gone. Upon closer examination, nothing was there. I don't even know what brought me to this train of thought in the first place. A second ago it felt very important.
I shake myself off and try to fall back asleep.
A new existential crisis reveals itself to me every few days, and a new astonishing wonderful revelation about every month or two. And half of a mystery solved lights up each night, but dissipates when I get close enough to study it.