when i read that i felt my ribs crack as my insides folded in on themselves 11:57 i can't fall asleep because those words are on repeat in my head and i missed my 11:11 wish but all i would have asked for is to have worth pumped into my veins to replace the empty feeling i look at myself in the mirror over the flame of my lighter and almost understand why you did it i am soft the puffy skin around tired eyes welcoming like fresh soil the curves and dips of my body the waterfall of ***** blonde at my shoulders the shaking lips that whispered i love you with such sincerity everything about me is soft especially my heart so why wouldn't you use me why wouldn't you lie right into my eyes because you knew they believed every syllable kissed my lips to feel alive because you knew every time they would melt brushed my hair back and traced my body because you knew i was fragile and nothing would stop me from falling i am soft and i trusted you so why wouldn't you feed me the lies of what i crave sprinkle i love yous down on my being fool me into feeling special it was easy for you wasn't it it was fun to have me fall knowing you did not care one bit knowing you were lying every time you said you did you probably enjoyed watching me crash because it gave you power and you knew i was nothing but something to cure your loneliness and get you off but, my love i will be so much more and you will regret making me your object i am worth much more than that i am sorry you could never see that
s.s
this hurts more than anything you've ever done, ******* for pretending i was something