I realized tonight While I laid in what use to be our bed I realized that your voice has left my memory.
I can't hear it anymore Not like I use to. I can't remember it I kept trying so desperately to remember
What did it sound like? Any of it when you laughed or even cried. What sleepy noises did you use to make?
I can still see your smile, thank God I can still see it I can see the crooked grin but I can't hear you.
You're beginning to fade I don't know how to stop it. I don't know how to memorialize every part of you.
You're drifting away I thought I could hold on for eternity. I thought for sure I’d keep every bit of you Locked away in my memory I was wrong.
You see we’re human And humans forget I'm so scared one day I will wake up and you'll just be gone.
You've been gone 4 years now I don't want anymore of you to leave me.
I will not, I can not survive that.
I squeeze my eyes as tight as possible Hoping that the memory of your hand on my thigh will come back
Hoping I can still feel the feeling of you fingers laced with mine... It's gone. I can't remember how rough the felt.
I can't remember the exact shade of green your eyes held I have lost the smell in the air of when you first got out of the shower.
I still remember it use to be my favorite moment First thing in the morning but now it's disappeared with so many other things.
It’s losing you all over again I don't know how to stop it, stop you from becoming a fictional time in my life.
You were real, We were real. You loved me. You loved me so much I know you did
There are people People in my life now, that have never heard your name. That never knew us...
People that have only known me Without you. How is that possible? Who even am I without you? Just a casing of who I use to be? A hollow person with nothing to give? These people don't even know They don't know me at all.